The beacon has been activated

As has been previously mentioned, the affect of orgasm denial on my sleep patterns is of interest to me. Lately, I have been sleeping really poorly. I think I’ve had about 10 hours of sleep over the past three days, and it’s not due to the physical discomfort of being in the CB6K. I seem to be teeming with hormones and they just won’t let me fall asleep or stay asleep. I’ll wake up in the middle of the night perfectly alert, hard-on stuffed into its plastic home, and vivid sexual images passing though my head. Last night, I experienced the sensation of waves running up my body from my waist to my chest and down my arms. They seemed to be waves of pure electric excitement like some kind of emergency beacon activated by my cock to tell the world it’s been abandoned and for someone to please send help. Putting an arm over Belle or her holding me seems to calm these feelings, but does nothing to help me really relax. Yes, I’m calmer, but now I’m touching her.

Last night before she went to sleep, Belle was kind enough to use her nails on my ass, back and my stretched ball sack. We kissed deeply and basically had a heavenly time. It was like pouring gas on a campfire, but I enjoyed every second of it. I told her how happy she was making me and how lucky I considered myself to be since I’ve found many examples on the web of husbands trying to bring OD or chastity into their marriages with little interest from their spouses. I told Belle I am really starting to think of the meat between my legs as belonging to her. I believe that she controls and owns it and, through it, me. She’s exploring what that means to her and on what terms she wants to live with it, and that’s what makes me happy. She’s not just doing it because I want her to. She’s making it her own. And I love her so much for that.

I keep wanting to fuss with the fit of the CB6K. For most of my current stint in the device, I’ve been wearing the second to largest ring (1 7/8″ I think) and the second to smallest spacer. Based on Maymay’s fitting advice, I feel I should be wearing the middle sized ring (1 3/4″) but have a hard time with it. I put it on last night while cleaning the device, along with a larger spacer, but once erect found myself in too much pain. I remember the 1 7/8″ ring also caused pain at first, so I suppose I just need to eventually suck it up, wear the 1 3/4″ ring and make my cock adapt. But I chickened out and reverted to the larger ring just before bed.

So, that’s the state of affairs on this, my ninth day without orgasm and first full week in chastity. Belle and I are leaving town tonight for a weekend in a cabin deep in the woods (without internet). I know she’s not going to let me out until tomorrow, so that will be eight days locked up. I suspect she will allow me to orgasm as well, but if she really wanted to demonstrate her position, she won’t let it happen right away. Or maybe not even until Sunday. That would be delicious. However, I absolutely want to come this weekend. Ten or eleven days without release is enough for this little bunny, thanks.

2 Replies to “The beacon has been activated”

  1. She’s not just doing it because I want her to. She’s making it her own. And I love her so much for that.

    ZOMG SO HAWT.

    Ahem…. But seriously, that’s the hottest part of this kink for me, too. It’s the active control from my keyholder that is the attraction.

    I remember the 1 7/8″ ring also caused pain at first, so I suppose I just need to eventually suck it up, wear the 1 3/4″ ring and make my cock adapt. But I chickened out and reverted to the larger ring just before bed.

    Just to give you some context on this, I had the very same experience. When I would switch to smaller size, it would hurt and be uncomfortable. I suspect this is partly because the tighter the ring the more stretch and strain the skin over the scrotum was forced to endure. I didn’t end up switching rings for the evening periods in my adjustment period, but I did do shorter stints locked in the device when I was adjusting to a “downsize.”

    As long as you’re not constricting blood flow for any significant length of time, you should be fine. Good luck! And enjoy the weekend! As usual, I am both envious and relieved I’m not in your position. 😉

  2. I didn’t end up switching rings for the evening periods in my adjustment period, but I did do shorter stints locked in the device when I was adjusting to a “downsize.”

    I was thinking something along the same lines. Wearing the smaller ring during the day and switching to the next size up at night. I found the 1 3/4″ perfectly comfortable when flaccid. In fact, it’s as you say on your blog. I think the smaller ring is easier to wear than the larger one, but only when soft. It’s good to hear someone else’s experience with this.

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