Yesterday was just weird all the way around. I think my issue with the device was that I reassembled it after cleaning using the smallest spacer. Even though it’s only a little smaller than the one up from it (which is what I normally wear), space is so tight down there that the tolerances are small. The ring pain I experienced during the day was, I suspect, mostly the result of not lubricating it properly, but the shorter spacer might have contributed. I know it was a factor in what I faced this morning. I can’t recall ever finding myself so tightly packed into the device as I was then. Just that small difference in tube extension made my normal morning erection (which, as every guy knows, is typically the strongest of the day) push every tiny bit of open space out of the tube. My flesh was extruding out of the side vents and slit like modeling clay and my balls, which are already swollen and sore from frustration, were pulled just that much further from my body and were tight and throbbing. I tried to pee and felt the urine travel down my urethra and then just stop about halfway down the shaft. The end of the penis was pressed shut. This has happened before and usually means I have to flex my kegels to spray it out in tight bursts, but even that proved difficult and it caused the urine to burn upon exiting so I eventually gave up. Probably the most uncomfortable I’ve been in the CB-6000. Odd thing is, it didn’t occur to me to just take it off.
But take it off I did while I was getting ready for work with the thought of moving up to the second largest ring. That’s when I discovered the spacer issue. I was standing there naked (I had just come out of the shower) fiddling with the pieces when I felt something cold on my leg. Looking down, I saw a long, clear, unbroken string of what I assume was precum hanging off the end of the cock and extending to my calf. That kind of oozing has been happening off and on for about the past 24 hours or so. I’ll just be sitting there, shift a little, and feel a small squirt escape into the tube. I wouldn’t have expected this for another week, based on previous experience, but I’m sure my hyper-arousal this week has advanced the schedule a bit.
Finally, I was having a meeting this morning with some of the people who work for me and was doing a lot of getting up and down from my seat to write on the whiteboard. One time, as I sat back down, I left myself turned away from the table with my legs spread and noticed the guy next to me totally checking out the device’s bulge. He played it pretty cool and wasn’t ogling or anything, but I could see where he was looking. As nonchalantly as I could, I turned my legs under the table and dropped my hand to my lap to see how exposed I was. I’m pretty sure he was able to see the ridge of the glans molded into the end of the tube pressing through my pants. I have no idea what he thought of the show, but I can say I’m not too thrilled he got it. I’m not sure what to do about this issue. These are the baggiest pants I have. I guess I’m just going to have to start being more aware of myself or accept the fact that people are going to see it and think…well, I don’t know what they’re going to think. Maybe that I have a very short, fat erection all the time. Eventually, I suppose someone who knows what it is will see it. That’ll be an interesting day.
Belle Fille’s plane departs in about five hours. She’ll be home tomorrow afternoon. I am beyond excited to have her back. My little issue with sleep on Wednesday put me behind in finishing her task since my brain was hardly functioning yesterday evening. I have two more posts to write before I pick her up at the airport. Then, I’ll get to find out her reaction to all my gut-spilling.
Your dedication to your Belle is so lovely!! I’m happy that you are excited about chastity. Where did the two of you get your device? I’ve been looking for a chastity device to purchase for my Knight for awhile.
We bought it from this site: http://www.chastitydeviceformen.com/
It was the cheapest I could find at the time. My only issue is that it took longer than I expected to arrive as it was shipped from Canada (which I didn’t know at the time I ordered it). Otherwise, no complaints!
Briefs and boxer-briefs are better for supporting the device and keeping it in position along your leg. I periodically need to adjust mine so that it’s hanging left or right, and well past the pant seam. I’ve never noticed anybody checking it out, but the, I think I’m pretty good at keeping it low.
Interestingly, I think that the 6k might be better for this because the head is so tapered; I hadn’t considered that the larger ridge might show up more.
Hmm, I bet the underwear could have had something to do with it. I was wearing boxer briefs, but the material is somewhat thin and not probably didn’t hold the device down as well as some of the briefs I own.
I guess I never realized the 3k didn’t have a ridge on its head. I noticed that earlier while looking at your pictures.
Love-hate relationships used to be with respect to humans. In your case it seems to be extended to an inanimate object, namely, your chastity device. Where will it end?
If only your Belle were just a little more involved with the idea of your chastity, you would not even need the hardware. Or maybe you would need it more.
I will have to think about this.
I think Belle is well involved with my chastity. When I wrote this, she was away and I decided to lock myself up because I was so turned on by her request that I write down the things I wanted her to do to me (so turned on, that I was unable to sleep for an entire night). I have a sufficient amount of self-control, but no man’s perfect. Absent the device, I’m not sure I would have maintained my denial. Probably would have come accidentally after trying to edge myself.
And I *do* have a love/hate relationship with the device. On the one hand, I hate how it complicates my life and makes me uncomfortable. On the other, I love what it represents (her control) and, as I’ve written before, I feel a certain amount of security and well-being when I’m in it. In every way, it’s the physical representation of our power exchange dynamic and therefore our relationship, so I can’t ever truly hate it.