Three of her orgasms. That’s what I’ve lost due to my willful masturbation last week.
Also, I’ve been informed, I won’t have another orgasm until November. That’s not necessarily as a result of the unauthorized ejaculation. It’s about the rythme she’s put me on recently. There will be two periods of travel between now and November, but both will be with someone else so the solo action described previously won’t be possible. Also, since I’ll be checking luggage on both of these trips, I’ll probably bring the protective device along just to be safe. Had it been with me last week, I wouldn’t have broken the rules.
So, did I break the rules because I’m untrustworthy and incapable of the honor system or was it something else? As regular readers know, I’ve been in similar situations before and not fallen off the wagon. Why was this last trip different? On the one hand, I was very tired and knew I wasn’t likely to sleep well at all had I not relived myself. I really wanted to sleep. I think, in balance, that was the primary motivator behind the infraction. However, as I said, I spent no time at all debating it with myself. There was a moment I distinctly remember where I was contrasting the night I knew I was about to face to the feeling of the PA rocking back and forth and my decision was immediate and without reservation. I don’t know if that means I can’t be trusted anymore. I know I would never try to sneak the device off or defeat it in some way (not that I could), but alone with an unprotected penis? When horny? I don’t know. It feels as though I can’t trust myself anymore, so why should Belle?
And in a way, I like that. The knowledge that I really do need to be locked up and that, had I my druthers, I’d be abusing myself were it not for the steel lock. Being an accomplice to my own denial has required a certain amount of reality suspension. Of course, I still need to be accommodating to the arrangement because my chastity is, at the end of the day, consensual, but now it’s got a different texture. It really is enforced. She says I can’t jack off and come without her permission so there’s a device locked on the penis to make sure I don’t because without it I might.
Is that evolution or devolution? Either way, it’s 16% hotter than before.
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Lol, 16 is the number. Not 15, nor 17. 18 is definitely out. 16 is the number and the number is 16.
Monty Python for those who think ive gone mad!
Was that for the key to the Holy Chastity Device of Antioch?
O Lord, bless this thy chastity belt that with it thou mayest tease thine enemies to insanity, in thy mercy.
She’s really very good. So sorry for you Thumper!
Oh, what lust filled things we are. Isn’t it nice?
What does it mean for you to lose three of her orgasms? She gets to have three without your involvement? She gets to have three without your involvement before the next time she has one with your involvement? She has three fewer orgasms overall?
It means I have no part of her next three orgasms.
I think we both know that the excuse it would help you sleep more and that is why you did it doesn’t hold water.The petit mort would have been followed as I am sure it was by pangs of guilt and as you have desrcribed self doubt.
We are all open to temptation and as you said you now feel more secure now that you physically cannot get to your genitals at least not without your love noticing.Dilemma solved .