Belle replies, part 3

Billus asked:

Belle, how much is indulging your mate, and how much is your own hot fantasy? And has the ratio changed from beginning to now?

At the beginning of all of this, roughly a year ago or so, I would say very little was my own fantasy (hot or not :)).  The ratio has definitely changed now.  But what I think about, and what is exciting to me, is less about the actual sex (always good with Thumpie), and mostly about the power dynamic.  The submissiveness is hot.  It fuels me and excites me, and makes me feel desired, appreciated, respected.

Belle replies, part 2

Rach asked:

I would like to ask Belle if she feels like being kinky with you has changed her sexuality at all, or changed the way she thinks about her sexuality? As the once-vanilla partner of a very submissively-inclined boy, I often marvel at my capacity to really, really enjoy these things that would have never crossed my mind a year or two ago, yet are part of his earliest fantasies.

FYI, Ferns and Tom, I am saving your questions for this weekend.  Look for responses then 🙂

Rach, this experience has undoubtedly allowed me to be more open to who I am sexually.  But I do think I have a lot of reflection, understanding and growth to achieve.  I am the conditioned product (now emancipated) of Catholicism; including 12 years of Catholic education.  I also lived through a long and very difficult period in my parent’s marriage during childhood that was centered around some unhealthy sexual behavior.   This lack of positive framing regarding sex and sexuality really left me in a place where I was afraid to spend a lot of time analyzing or pondering who I was sexually or what I would want from sex.  I was very willing to consider sex as a transactional obligation that had a touch of fun or intimacy in it, but was something I needed to “do” to keep my guy happy and content.   Self-enjoyment and fulfillment were not really part of my equation.

Yet I entered into a relationship with Thumper knowing that he certainly was NOT-vanilla. Never once was I uncomfortable with that, even if “kinky” wasn’t something that I wanted or needed.

In our new dynamic, I am forced to think about and strive for better understanding of myself sexually. And I like that A LOT.  I am more open and interested in sex, and I feel more comfortable exploring it.  I also am slowly becoming more playful in nature with it, do not take it so seriously.  This has allowed me to approach it all with more ease and enjoyment.  I also, as you note, definitely take pleasure in things that would never have been on my radar (e.g. putting nipple clamps on him, whacking him with a crop).

Because Thumper wants to do things for me, and truly serve me, I truly want to gift him with things that are important to him.  I LOVE the intimacy, consideration, thoughtfulness and dedication that this has brought to our relationship.

Belle replies, Part 1

Sera asked:

I’d like to hear what Belle finds hot about Thumper–what’s the sexiest thing about him to you, BF?

Also, what is the appeal of Pink, and where can I find one?

Hello Everyone!

I look forward to answering your questions. I’m sure it will help me better understand myself and ponder my POV on this journey.  I’ve started with Sera’s question because it was the one to which I had the most spontaneous and complete answer.

What do I find hot about Thumper?

  1. The tuft of hair that sits at the nape of his neck.  It is a physical aspect of his to which I had an immediate attraction from the very first time I met him.  Staring at it still makes me weak in the knees and moist in the crotch.  It is extremely comforting and powerful, in a territorial sort of fashion, for me to be able to stroke those hairs.
  2. His incredibly complex, confident and intelligent mind.  Thinking about the fact that such a dominant and thoughtful brain wants to submit and serve me is a very powerful and sexy notion.  This is probably what I’ve always found sexiest about him.
  3. The way my cock looks in the Steelworxx.  It makes the CB6K look like a bottle of Colt 45 compared to a bottle of Grey Goose, Belevedere, Kaufmann, Trump (pick your choice distinctive bottle of premium vodka).

What is the appeal of Pink, and where can I find one?

OMG Pink.  I have been quite flabbergasted by how I have grown to love and appreciate this device.  The beauty of Pink, IMO, rests in the perfect combination of its simplicity, beauty and power.  It is sleek, smooth and uncomplicated; as if Steve Jobs had willed the perfect vibrator into existence.  Thumper also bought me a Rabbit but it pales in comparison to the ease, comfort and beauty of Pink.

As to where to find one, Thumper has already provided you with the link to it on Eden Toys.