I spent last weekend with Frodo (for the noobs: Frodo is the guy I met and had a relationship with in high school and who was subsequently the best man in our wedding and no his name is not really Frodo — I’ve written about him before so search his name if you’re curious).

It was…a lot of fun.

In the midst of if, I started to become kind of emotional. Not like in bad way. Like, all my emotions were just kind of floating high near the surface. I was overcome with gratitude and happiness that I somehow managed to find myself at this place in my life with a wife I love and who understands me and cares for me how I need to be cared for and allows me to go off on weekends like this one so I can spend time with my oldest and dearest friend who also understands me and accepts me for how I am and OH MY GOD the confluence of all these people who I love and love me back was just too much to take at points. This may or may not have led to some gushy and sentimental Facebook posting.

When I got back, I was being very affectionate to Belle. Not on purpose. Not in some kind of calculated way. I just couldn’t be near her enough. I couldn’t express myself enough. A house full of home-for-the-summer children not withstanding, I wanted to take her to bed and make her scream with delight. She was like, WTF is up with you, Rabbit?

And…it’s like I said. So much gratitude. So much love. Everywhere for both of them. I think right now I’m about as close as I’ve ever been to really understanding how polyamory can work when done right. Ethically and openly and without guilt or shame. I love both these people. Part of that love is the same, but a lot of it is different. They’re different. They have played different roles in my life. But I’m so happy they’re both in my life at the same time and I can (occasionally) bounce back and forth between them. It makes me so, so happy and Belle is the primary person responsible for this arrangement thanks to her understanding and acceptance and, ultimately, confidence in me and our bond.

Like I said, the love I feel for these two people is not the same because they’re not the same. But I feel that this past weekend I allowed myself to really feel for Frodo how I have felt for him for years and express that to him as honestly as I ever have. And it’s exactly because we are both married to who we’re married to that that love can exist as it does. And it’s no less intense and no less valid than any other love I feel. Frodo is quite simply one of the two most important people in my life and has been for more than 35 years. I would not be the person I am today if not for him.

And Belle is the other most important person in my life and has been for more than 20 years. I would also not be the person I am today if not for her. It’s not an exaggeration to say all the best parts of my life today are due to her.

Thing is, people, there is no limit to love. It is not a finite resource. It’s renewable. It’s bottomless. Our capacity for love is only contained by our lack of imagination and our petty jealousies and insecurities. I am the luckiest fucking rabbit in the world to find myself in this place and there isn’t a moment I don’t realize that.

I am so grateful.

4 thoughts on “Rebound

  1. You appear to be living the dream with polyamory. I also have question about chastity devices including the Nub (micro device). One of my testicles sit higher than the other and I have pain on that side when I have on a device for more than 2 days. Do you have any suggestions? The higher testicle .makes the device rotate to face the opposite side
    That looks a little weird

    1. Sounds to me you need a bigger base ring. You don’t say what kind of device you have, but I have some that rotate like that. It’s annoying.

  2. Lucky boy! To have touched both types of love so profoundly is a moving and wonderful experience indeed. See what Plato has to say in his dialogue between Socrates and the beauteous boy Pheadrus. Unencumbered by the ‘business’ of marriage and contracts and children and responsibility, the two could enjoy the idealized form of each other and therefore enjoy the purest love – hence Platonic love. You have caught the essence of this with Frodo. And fortunately for you, you have worked on your relationship with Belle, so that it has transcended the merely erotic and dutiful aspects of married life to maintain or achieve a sense of the sublime as well. Chastity will do this for you. It removes your urgent needs from the delights of bed chamber activity, and focuses on her needs – which when attended to thoroughly, will elevate her to goddess status. You may enjoy your internal orgasms, but not ejaculation; while she will mount higher and higher on your adoration till she sits with the gods herself. Tantric sex in a nutshell. Then you have it all – platonic love, erotic love, and Tantric love. And this truly moves you into the field of Unconditional or Universal love – Agape – as the Greeks called it. Love for all, that descends on you and through you, And we can feel that sense in the awe you feel and have expressed in your piece today. Congratulations. Cris.

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