I have been pretty much 24/7 for the last 18 months in a Jailbird. I unlock about every other weekend for a release, etc. Lately I have been extending periods of lockups so that now I am at every 6 weeks or so. It seems that my first hurdle is about day 18-20 when I will have a sleepless night, etc., and I know that a good j-o would solve the problem. As you have gone for longer periods locked up, are you find these hurdles as well, and if so how you do you think you might managed them?
I’ve been meaning to talk about the sleep thing as I’ve recently discovered a way around it. Other long-term denial hurdles…well, that’s what this whole blog is about!
In the past, I’ve been reluctant to take anything to help me sleep because by the time I realize I’m screwed (figuratively, of course) it’s too late and I’m worried about not being able to get up in the morning or feeling drugged and groggy. Lately, though, at the earliest sign of potential sleeplessness, I take one of these: A small tablet with 3 mg of melatonin that melts in my mouth. I find that the melatonin lets me fall asleep in a way that feels more natural. I don’t feel drugged. Also, while I do still feel the effects the next morning, they’re not as severe as a regular over the counter sleeping aid and seem to dissipate more quickly.
The trick is knowing when I’m about to have a sleepless night. That comes with experience. There’s a difference between having trouble falling asleep and staring down a hole of six or seven hours in bed with no relief. I can’t really describe it, but the sleeplessness is like a small burr between my brain and skull. Just enough to keep me on enough of an edge that sleep never manifests. But with the little minty pill, the edge goes away. I could probably get by with half a dose, but they’re already pretty tiny. They’d be tricky to halve.
Some people might have an issue with taking a sleep aid (or any drug), and I’m not crazy about having to do it. However, the alternative is truly terrible and the alternative to the alternative (jacking off to completion) is not an option. I am comforted by the notion that melatonin is one of the hormones the male brain produces following orgasm. In a way, I’m cutting to the chase and getting the sleepytime post-orgasmic effects without all the messy spewing about.